Saturday, July 26, 2008
If you are an avid reader of blogs then I'm sure you know Kari and Kijsa. They are in need of your prayers today and in the coming days as their father passed away this morning. You can read and send messages to their brother's blog HERE.
This brings back memories of my father's death at the age of 53. All I can say about my father's passing was that I was blessed to be with him when he died. I had the opportunity to spend more time with him in his final days than I had in the previous 15 years. It was a GIFT.
As the oldest daughter I took on the responsibilities of bringing him into my home with help from HOSPICE. He was given 3 months to live when he was diagnosed with psorosis and lung cancer. This is the only prayer I prayed for him. God, If it is your will to make him healthy please do so, If that is not your will then please don't make him suffer any longer. He died 3 days after we brought him home.
There is a stage of dying where people withdraw into themselves. There is also this need to have said goodbyes, my youngest sister, Mandy, never came to see him, he had withdrawn into himself, I was kneeling by his chair telling him that I loved him and IT was okay. Lots of sweet nothings. The only response I got from him was when I lied, yes I lied. He was suffering and I wanted him to have some comfort. I asked if he had seen Mandy (youngest sister) earlier. He came to life with that question and looked at me, I repeated the question stating that she had been there earlier. His response was something like "No baby , was she here?" Yes Dad she was here. I think it comforts Mandy too to know that at least he thought she had been there. Later that night Tom and I were with him and though it was not a peaceful passing, he was not alone. Not alone like it could have been, not without me, whether he liked it or not, I was there. I can ONLY think of it as a GIFT, given to me by a kind and loving GOD. I give thanks daily for that gift.
I really didn't mean for this to become about me and my father. Just that we should all notice the gifts that we are given. I'm sure Kari and Kijsa know how blessed they are to have had such a wonderful father in their lives.